Forgive Me This

I know it is very inappropriate to talk about marital issues with anyone other than

that spouse..............

But my heart just got broke into a thousand pieces and

while i feel very sad ....

I also feel Flabergasted and appauled at the accusation that.....

GET THIS:

I am not making the same sacrificing that Matt is.

He is going to work and traveling to pay our debts and get us in a better situation....

and is FRUSTRATED with me cuz his sacrificing is bigger than mine!

YEAH .......I KNOW.  RUDE HUH!

and uncalled for i might add.

DONT MIND ME!

i'm just living in a hotel with 3 kids and a dog and have given up any

home or vehicle that i had posession of in the last year!!!!!!

I know he will take it back and apologize endlessly for saying that to me.
As pukey as it feels to say right now, He is a good guy.
He just should have left that lil'  ugly thought that popped into his head right where
he found it!

 

Have you ever said something out loud that you know you should not have?
Like you may have believed it when it crossed your mind but then  you say it outloud and reallize
that it's probably not entirely true and  it was that natural man in you screaming to get out.

The adversary loves it when we do that!

 Yah - anyways- the words still were said...and  they caused someone's heart hurt.
Mine this time.

I feel a little better already.

thanks for letting me vent.

(i have to delete this post before Matt gets home ...and i am sure i will

feel regretful in an hour anyhow.....

but i just had to get it off my chest.)

So forgive me this please.

shell