Yesterday was a true test of
my Character......
and my Faith....
see,
sometimes,
when i start to get discouraged about
walking away from our beautiful home...
and needing to live in a basement when we aren't
traveling from hotel to hotel, following
hubby while he works on the road,
...I like to go into home furnishing stores
and dream....
antique stores, thrift shops....
it gives me a glimmer of hope when i focus on the future!
I get a bit of a rush imagining what is still to come.
What fantastic things lie ahead?
Where will life take us?
It all seems so close now...
we are working hard on saving and paying off debts.
The sale of our home is almost complete...
But yesterday was one of those days...
the light at the end of the tunnel was dim.
You just never know...
We had just arrived at a Scandinavian Design shop....
and my cellphone rang...
It was our realtor....
The pending sale on our home has fallen through.
The bank is not cooperating...
We were told 7 months ago to miss payments and
go into default so that the bank would work with us.
(the squeaky wheel theory)
Now that this sale has fallen through...
the bank has given us 90 days to sell the house...
or they will foreclose on us....
Really????!!!
Seriously???!!!
here i am standing in this home decorating store....
My tummy was tight and my heart was heavy...
i fought back some rushes of tears...
My kids were walking in front of me....
My heart was breaking for them...
they are the real victims in all of this...
they trust us to provide for them...
it has been a long,
hard, road...
We were thriving...
and the bottom dropped out from beneath us....
I'm looking around me...
It's not decorating that made me sad...
(i'm not that shallow)
I was surrounded by pretty things, cozy things...
It was all representing....
having a home again .
One that seems sooooooooooo far away now.
I handled myself so well.
despite the thoughts in my head of curling up in a ball
and clocking out of reallity for a while...
but at that moment.... i decided to hold it together.
It was an actual conscious decision.
After we left...
I had a minor crying bout in the car.
but then i put it all in perspective...
I put it in the Lord's hands.
i have to trust Him.
I have to believe that he knows me.
He loves me.
and he has wonderful things in store for me
and my family;
a family that loves Him and heeds His gospel...
and follows His commandments..
He wants us to be happy.
I am in his loving care.
ALL IS WELL...
MY FAITH PROMISES ME THAT.
xoxo shell
What keeps you going when life gets tuff?
please share
what is your mls #...lets spread the word!
ReplyDeleteWhat gets me through? YOU
Faith that he knows me and faith that through the Atonement he truly understands what I'm going through. Though no one else on this earth may really understand my pains and frustrations, He DOES, and has sent the Holy Ghost to comfort us. There are many injustices in this life, but through the Atonement all will be made right, if not in this life, then in the life to come. This mortal experience is just a small piece of our glorious existence. We are a rough stone rolling, being tossed to and fro, as our rough edges are slowly smoothed and grinded down to expose the precious gems that we are. He Does know you and we've been blessed to feel of His love for you as we have prayed for you. We love you lots, RJAKLEB
ReplyDeleteGod gives us just enough grace to get through today--not more, just enough. Tomorrow there is grace for tomorrow. Truly. Clinging to that is how it works for me.
ReplyDeleteI hope things turn out well for you! Just trust that they WILL! I just have to have the strength to know that if we are doing all that we can do and doing what we know is right that everthing else will fall in it's place. FAITH!
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