Defense Mechanism????

Maybe the reallity of it all hasn't fully set in yet.

Maybe it's  blessings from above......

Perhaps it's my internal coping mechanism.....

But so far ...all is going considerably well!

On second thought.....it may very well be all of the above.

I do know however,

that i have been blessed with an amazing characteristic.

I thank God for it all the time.

It is this.......

Situations get rough.....
times get tough.....

things get said that hurt my heart...
bad things happen....

But i can very, very, extremely easily......

 forgive and forget.

i believe that is a huge blessing...

if not for that gift...
i would have loads and loads of  harsh baggage!

I don't think that i would be a fully functioning person.

I mean, don't get me wrong ...
i have ruts i go through.  I lose my perspective and feel hopeless
sometimes....
but for the most part i can usually convince myself that things aren't so bad.

 just give me a minute or two to put it all in perspective
and i can snap out of it and put it in it's place.

Right now we are amidst a less than perfect task...

this whole hotel living thing....

3 kids...2 adults...1 dog....homeschooling 1st grade...
homeschooling a preschooler....
keeping a toddler out of trouble and everyones' belongings in a 280 sq ft. space is
just NUTTY!
(as i am typing this.... she has dumped a box of fruity pebble cereal  all over
the floor and is spreading it around the room.....)

...but ByGolly....

So far we are making a good go of it all!

The thing about my great coping mechanism is that .....
it doesn't last forever.............

If the situation continues too long or escalates too quickly....

I FREAK OUT!

purging my system of it  .....

and then i move on again quite quickly.


Soooooo,
i'm not sure what exactly is getting us through,
but i'm kinda having too much fun to feel bad for myself...
 i am thankful for  that!


It's not home but...

I think were gonna make it!

it's like there is finally a plan....
and that alone is offering me just a little bit of.....

xoxo  shell