Tuesday, September 15, 2009

Mostly Just the Lemons today.

So Just incase you mis-understood......
this is not a Prozac driven, all things positive, all the time....
kind of blog. 
This is about a real life.
My life.
And life is hard sometimes..(ok- a lot of the time)
So this blog is about me trying to be positive.
Trying to find the good that can come from any given situation.
But reality is.......
Sometimes i just can't see the cup half full right away.
Sometimes i  need a little bit before i can get there.
Today was hard.  Really, Really,  hard for me.
I cried a lot
and had 3 too many breakdowns.
I was having my own little pity party.
(those are healthy right?)
I told myself it was ok to greive today ...
as long as i could pick myself back up tomorrow and move on.
(we'll see how that goes tomorrow.  I'll let ya know)
i am going to miss  so many things about my current state.
so many people...so many comforts...so many things that i
probably have just taken for granted.
(I'm almost done.  I promise!)
I felt more like a hobo today than a gypsy.  that's for sure!
A  homeless, little, insignificant, dirtball, vagabond.
(my husband laughed at me and  assured me that i am none of those.)
Anyway, it felt good to cry and now that the flood gates have opened
i sure hope i can control them better than i did today.
b.t.w.   I am on prozac.
I just ran out yesterday.  that could have a little to do with all this.
ooh and it is that time of the month.....
that too could be playing a part.
thanks for letting me boo hoo....
brighter day tomorrow....for sure.
I'm gonna put on my big girl panties and get over it!  :)
xOxo--- shell


  1. Aww, sweetie, I know its tough, but in the end, it will all pay off! Hang in there & you & the kids will be with Matt soon!!!

  2. We love you and yes this upcoming gypsy state you are entering into is causing tears in our home too. Lots of tears, by our hearts will continue to be with you.

  3. oh Shell, I am sorry. (tears, tears, sniff, sniff) Do not think you have been given this because you don't deserve better. Let me know if I can do anything to help