Mostly Just the Lemons today.

So Just incase you mis-understood......

this is not a Prozac driven, all things positive, all the time....

kind of blog. 

This is about a real life.

My life.

And life is hard sometimes..(ok- a lot of the time)

So this blog is about me trying to be positive.

Trying to find the good that can come from any given situation.

But reality is.......

Sometimes i just can't see the cup half full right away.

Sometimes i  need a little bit before i can get there.

Today was hard.  Really, Really,  hard for me.

I cried a lot

and had 3 too many breakdowns.

I was having my own little pity party.

(those are healthy right?)

I told myself it was ok to greive today ...

as long as i could pick myself back up tomorrow and move on.

(we'll see how that goes tomorrow.  I'll let ya know)

i am going to miss  so many things about my current state.

so many people...so many comforts...so many things that i

probably have just taken for granted.

(I'm almost done.  I promise!)

I felt more like a hobo today than a gypsy.  that's for sure!

A  homeless, little, insignificant, dirtball, vagabond.

(my husband laughed at me and  assured me that i am none of those.)

Anyway, it felt good to cry and now that the flood gates have opened

i sure hope i can control them better than i did today.

b.t.w.   I am on prozac.

I just ran out yesterday.  that could have a little to do with all this.

ooh and it is that time of the month.....

that too could be playing a part.

thanks for letting me boo hoo....

brighter day tomorrow....for sure.

I'm gonna put on my big girl panties and get over it!  :)

xOxo--- shell