I am about to put out a bunch of dirty laundry.
Just gonna hang it all out for everyone to see.
Noone is perfect.
We are all here just working through each day...
Some days are a climb...
others just a stroll.
How well we cope with the ups and downs just depends on what season of our lives we are in.
My family and i have been through a lot financially
i would have to say that i have taken it all
and handled it very well.
but just as of late:
(like the last 3 months)
i've been struggling.
Every moment of happiness....i have to fight for it.
Any progress around the house.....i fight to get it done.
Just bathing and dressing myself and the kids....i force myself to do it....it's a fight.
I have to tell myself to put one foot in front of the other...
i have to talk myself into throwing in a load of laundry...
or picking up that first dish ...and then i have to convince
myself to keep going.
Life is a fight for me right now.
but it is one that i am willing to take on!
Sometimes i cry because i want to function normally ...sooo badly.
I am by nature a very Happy Girl.
so why is it all so hard right now???
why can't i laugh it off?
why can't i put it all into perspective?
these are the questions that run through my mind...ALL DAY.
Life is soooo hard right now...even the tiniest everyday stuff...
it's a battle just to keep breathing....
but i keep on fighting the good fight.
cuz deep down, i know that is what this is:
THE GOOD FIGHT
in the end...for those who endure...
it will all be worth it.
We will look back at this life and we will see
that it was all but a moment....
a short fleeting chance to prove ourselves...
our strength... our perserverance....
our willingness to fight for the stuff that really
I am overwhelmed.
Financially fighting to stay afloat and get ahead.
struggling with depression and exhaustion.
a hormone roller coaster off of my meds.
I am 30 and living in the in laws basement.
On top of the world at one time but now starting over from scratch.
I am easily discouraged right now, it's true.
but i know two things:
how much Jesus Loves me
how to eat an elephant.....
ONe BitE aT a TiME!
so i fight....each moment of the day...and lil' by lil'
I EAT THE ELEPHANT IN FRONT OF ME
cuz there is a lot of happiness to be had in this life...
and damn it all...
i am determined to get back to a place where it comes
more easily my direction!
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