Monday, March 12, 2012

Givin' it Another Go!





soooo...

it's been a while...

like almost exactly one year...

since i blogged last.


I will just come right out and say why...

cuz thats the kinda girl i am.

an open book...
(thats a form of therapy for me)


I haven't blogged since my little brother
RJ passed away and i posted his story.


i couldn't think of anything of enough
signifigance ..
that i could post,
after the unexpected passing
of an amazing young hero.

the guilt i felt for not being more
involved in his life as we grew up...
(in different homes)

was too much ..and caused EXTRA grieving
over the past year.

but i have missed out on an entire year
of my life....

grieving and turning  a lil  bit  bitter...

You see...

i lost my lemonade for a while.

I could only see the lemons...




but i am done with that now.


i am givin it another go!

at life....

at blogging...

at being present in every moment
of every day.




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and i could not think of a better thing

to start off bloggin about than...



the birth of a new addition
to our family.

Tyndlee Jane Hawker
7lbs 9oz
20"

born Feb.29th 2012

our little leap year baby..

(who was actually due on March 9th...
RJ's birthday)

she is a gift from heaven and has healed

this mommy's heart...

and changed me forever!




so heres to a new beginning...

and i promise...

there is plenty of LEMONADE to come!

xoxo  shell

8 comments:

  1. I was worried about you. Im glad thing you found your lemonaid again. :-) Congrats on your new little girl. If you need anything, I am now close (Saratoga Springs)and would love to help. (or just play)

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  2. Welcome Back! :) What a cute baby!!! She's a doll! Congrats!!!!!

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  3. Awe Shell... So glad you are back in the saddle again, well, not the actual saddle, LOL. Your home is beautiful and so is your sweet family.

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  4. Awe Shell... So glad you are back in the saddle again, well, not the actual saddle, LOL. Your home is beautiful and so is your sweet family.

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  5. Awe Shell... So glad you are back in the saddle again, well, not the actual saddle, LOL. Your home is beautiful and so is your sweet family.

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  6. Awe Shell... So glad you are back in the saddle again, well, not the actual saddle, LOL. Your home is beautiful and so is your sweet family.

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  7. Awe Shell... So glad you are back in the saddle again, well, not the actual saddle, LOL. Your home is beautiful and so is your sweet family.

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  8. YAY, YIPEE, HOORAY!! I love your posts, and I love YOU! --Mel

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