Givin' it Another Go!

soooo...

it's been a while...

like almost exactly one year...

since i blogged last.

I will just come right out and say why...

cuz thats the kinda girl i am.

an open book...

(thats a form of therapy for me)

I haven't blogged since my little brother

RJ passed away and i posted his story.

i couldn't think of anything of enough

signifigance ..

that i could post,

after the unexpected passing

of an amazing young hero.

the guilt i felt for not being more

involved in his life as we grew up...

(in different homes)

was too much ..and caused EXTRA grieving

over the past year.

but i have missed out on an entire year

of my life....

grieving and turning  a lil  bit  bitter...

You see...

i lost my lemonade for a while.

I could only see the lemons...

but i am done with that now.

i am givin it another go!

at life....

at blogging...

at being present in every moment

of every day.

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and i could not think of a better thing

to start off bloggin about than...

the birth of a new addition

to our family.

Tyndlee Jane Hawker

7lbs 9oz

20"

born Feb.29th 2012

our little leap year baby..

(who was actually due on March 9th...

RJ's birthday)

she is a gift from heaven and has healed

this mommy's heart...

and changed me forever!

so heres to a new beginning...

and i promise...

there is plenty of LEMONADE to come!

xoxo  shell